I fell off.

Sorry everyone. I lost touch with my inner writer for a while, due to unforeseen circumstances. Truthfully, I just haven’t felt inspired to write this past year. The tides have turned, fortunately, and I’ve felt the burning flame of constant thought flowing out of me lately. Hoping to write some interesting new blog posts soon. 🕉️☯️☮️

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True friendship. 

True friendship. 

Real friends don’t ask, ‘What’s in it for me?,’ or wonder how much they can get from you. They certainly don’t worry about formalities. Real friends WANT to help. They want to be there for you. You can comfortably confide in one another. True friends don’t hold grudges, or make you feel bad about small, meaningless things. You shouldn’t ever have to worry about a close friend judging you, or talking badly about you. Yes, true friends are rare, and hard to come by. If you make a true friend, hold their friendship near and dear, and don’t ever take them for granted. 

Facts about me

1. I LOVE YA fiction, and I’m a sucker for paranormal romance, dystopian and the occasional simple romance or thriller. 

2. I have a MAJOR addiction to sweets and sugar. I have to have something sweet daily, or I’ll get really irritable. I feel like that’s the main contribution for my weight, plus my love for fried foods, and junk. (I can’t hardly afford to eat out, so I don’t often, but I do enjoy sweets.)

3. Swimming is one of my all time favorite things in the world. I’ve always wanted to be a mermaid. I guess that’s a cliché. Lol. But I LOVE the water. I just feel so free. 

4. I’ve always been fascinated with birds. I’ve always wanted one, but never got one as a child. So, now to compensate, I’m a crazy bird lady, and I just want them all. Lol. 

5. I had a hard childhood. My real dad committed suicide when I was very young, and I only met him a couple of times as a baby, and toddler. My step-dad was abusive, and tried to kill me at fourteen. I’ve always been sort of scared of men, and my husband is the kindest, gentlest soul who calms me. He taught me not all men are out to hurt me. 

6. If I go to the movies, I HAVE to have a popcorn, extra butter, with a  cherry coke. Preferably some chocolate to go with it, lol. 

7. Got diagnosed with fibromyalgia, and while the diagnosis answered a lot of questions, it also changed my life in a big way. 

8. They say what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger. I’m wondering then, why I don’t feel like Hercules? I’ve been hit by a truck, held hostage with a shotgun, and beaten within an inch of my life, just to name a few. 

9. I’m materialistic. I love nice things. Designer and luxury brands make me happy. They’re my guilty pleasure. I’m also okay with generic brands. Have to be, when you’re broke. Lol. 

10. I’m very unorganized. I’ve always had trouble putting things back where they belong. I’ve been called messy, and a slob. 

There you have it. Ten very honest facts about me. More later, perhaps. If anyone wants to share their facts, feel free. 

Fibro Fighters

Just a collection of fibromyalgia related memes and images that I hope my fellow fibro warriors can relate to. #fibrofighter #fibromyalgia #invisibleillness #dontjudgewhatyoudontunderstand #lifetimebattle #staystrong 💜

New Year. 

​I don’t need a new year to make changes. In fact, I’ve began to make changes in my life well over a year ago. People overuse the whole,  “New year, new me,” line, and it gets a little embarrassing. I feel you shouldn’t need a new year to motivate change. If you feel your life needs change, what better time than the present? After all, are we granted tomorrow? No, it’s a gift, and we shouldn’t waste it. Sometimes people need gradual change. Dramatic change isn’t for everyone, and that’s okay. Just as long as you’re making improvements. With that being said, Happy New Year, all. 🙂 

My darling. 

​You know, I’m sure a lot of people would say they have the best significant other. And to them, they’re probably right! I can confirm that that’s how I feel about my fiancé. He’s simply the best, he’s marriage material, and I can’t wait for the honor of being his wife one day. 

Anthony is just so loving towards me. He’s very affectionate. After being with someone for 12 years who didn’t show affection or attention, I feel so appreciative. At first, I 

wasn’t even sure how to handle it! Lol. 

But after nearly six months together, we’ve only bonded even closer together and grew as a couple. I’m proud to call him mine. Everywhere we go, we hold hands. He’s sympathetic to the fact that I have disabilities, such as inability to walk for prolonged periods of time, due to my degenerative osteoarthritis. In grocery stores, instead of walking ahead of me, he actually sometimes gets his own cart, because his back causes him immense pain! Due to personal reasons, I’ve gained quite a bit of weight over the course of the last few years. There are days I feel so awful about myself, that I don’t even want to go out in public. Some days, I just want to lay in bed, and feel sorry for myself. It’s those days that Anthony reminds me of how gorgeous I am, inside and out, and how wonderful of a person I am. Finally, a man who brings me up, and uplifts my spirit! 

The point I’m trying to make is, I’m a very lucky woman. My fiancé is the ideal man for me. He’s everything I’ve ever wanted, and so much more. I never believed I would find someone this amazing. Needless to say, I’m hooked! 

My love. 

​So many thoughts, I’m not sure where to even begin. Right now, as I lay beside the love of my life, I feel inspired. I think I’ll write a little bit about our love story. 

 I met this unique, amazing man on Facebook through a mutual friend. (His sister.) Such a small world we live in. He confessed had his eye on me for a while, but was too shy to make a move. One day, July 7th, 2016, I received a message from him. It was simply, “Hello.” it’s amazing, what one word can do to someone. He immediately peaked my curiosity. I had seen pictures of him on my Facebook newsfeed and thought he was very hot. However, to my disappointment, I saw a few pictures of him with a short, heavyset brunette. I assumed he was taken, so I never messaged him, even though I felt inexplicably drawn to him somehow. I digress, that hello led to endless conversation. We immediately clicked. The sparks were flying from the very first conversation. I can honestly say I have never felt this way about a man before. Yes, even Chad. This connection far surpasses anything I’ve ever experienced before. It feels… Heavenly. 

We moved very quickly, without hesitation. We both felt, “Where have you been all my life?” Our compatibility is insane, we complement each other, and we come from eerily similar backgrounds. We made things official about a week after we got together. Once Anthony (my fiancé) moved in, he got a job, but it just wasn’t enough. My landlord agreed in the beginning to let us make payments, but then changed his mind out of the blue. I lost my apartment. 
It’s been rough, but we’ve made it. Our love is resilient. Now, nearly six months later, we’re happily engaged, and our situation is continuing to improve. Just goes to show, never give up on love. It finds us all, eventually.